allow me to vent

i've been playing at this little coffee shop near our church on saturday nights about once a month. it's been pretty cool to play covers and my own music. basically stuff i really like. i called yesterday to try to book again, and the lady said..."well we are only booking rock bands on the weekends now, we weren't making any money with the acoustic stuff on saturday nights. you can come and play from 4-6 on saturdays" so i went from getting invited to a record showcase to the 4-6 drive home slot on saturdays. not cool. especially since every time i played, the place was packed. not by 13-17 year olds who come in and just hang out, but by adults, who buy coffee and food. so i guess my appeal to the teeny bopper crowd just isn't there. i guess that's what they want to be. so i won't be playing there anymore. i'm not even going to thank them in my liner notes. is that bitter? it just strikes me as odd. it was an outlet for me. i really enjoyed going and playing there. so do i need to put a band together to get to play? i don't think so. i've been really wanting to write some heart searching songs. this gives me fuel to do just that. so goodbye wired internet cafe. i will no longer be your free entertainment. i wondered why she wouldn't return my phone calls. oh by the way the last time we were there the service stunk. amy waited 30 minutes for a latte. so i'm searching out new places to play. my next gig is the senior citizen group at cypress united methodist. go chuck. i'll probably get more out of playing there anyway. i do want to start a band. anyone? davo? we find a bass player under control and a drummer who can keep it simple, we could so rock.

have a great weekend.
happy mother's day
chuck

so i finished 2 of my books

i'm sure i will read them again. now i've plunged into every man's battle, and facedown. i'm about to do some teaching on worship at leader's revolution, i have lots of info, i just pray i can put it together where it makes sense, and it makes a difference. i ask myself, if it's not relevant and engaging, as well as useful, then why would anyone want to sit and listen and participate? i've been having this feeling as of late that i'm not doing enough. that i'm not going deep enough. if you read seth's blog awakeland, he spoke my sentiments. i feel like there is all this water, but it's ankle deep and i want to swim in the blue hole. so how do i go deeper? how do i seek the revelation of the most high God? good question. there are so many things that i want to do. sometimes i lose sight of where God has me now. i know that those kids i teach each day are a ministry. i love them and want to see them come to Christ. i also want to see hurting people bound up and healed. i want to see teenagers live a life of self-control and purity. i want to see children have a great biblical world view. so how does all of that happen. not in my strength. only in His.

Not only does God receive with delight gifts that belonged to Him in the first place, but He also pays the costliest of prices for their delivery Matt Redman

have a great day
chuck